Harry woke in his bed, dressed and tucked under the sheets. He relaxed against the blankets until the call of nature propelled him out of bed and to the toilet. His limbs felt heavy, as if he were wearing invisible weights, and all of his senses seemed to be numb. His eyesight was so bad he had to feel the toilet like a blind man before he was sure he would pee in the bowl instead of on the rim.
He had just returned to bed when Snape arrived.
“How do you feel?”
“Like someone wrapped me in heavy cling film when I was sleeping,” Harry answered. “My eyesight is terrible, is that normal?”
The giant black smudge that was Snape stepped over to the table and Harry smelt rather than saw the food. “It is…this is the first time you’ve been awake the morning after the Cruciatus. The last time Bellatrix tortured you, you slept until the late afternoon.”
“That doesn’t sound so bad,” Harry yawned as he carefully climbed into his chair.
“It would be best for you to rest as much as possible today. We should be able to resume our normal training session tomorrow. You don’t want to strain your muscles while they are healing,” explained Snape as he sipped his tea.
“Mm.” His porridge had strawberries on the side but he was so tired and his senses so limited that the smell didn’t bother him and he poured the whole container into his bowl.
Snape was silent throughout breakfast. Harry could tell the Death Eater was deep in thought by the way he held his teacup. Snape cleared the dishes when Harry was finished and then left silently.
Harry tried reading, but the letters swam before his eyes so he slept until Snape arrived to bring him lunch.
“Have you been brewing?” His eyesight had improved; he could see Snape’s face this time, a pale smudge in a sea of black with the thick lines of the eyebrows perched prominently on top.
“Yes, I have,” Snape’s wand brought forth a thick beef stew for Harry and he ate it slowly, savouring the taste.
Snape did not produce a meal for himself. Instead, he stepped out of the cell as soon as he had served Harry’s meal.
“Wait!” Harry’s voice made Snape pause. “Can you give me the laser pointer and let me try targeting?”
Snape nodded. “Wait here.”
Harry worked on his stew but wasn’t finished by the time Snape returned with the balls. The Death Eater spelled them to move around the walls and handed Harry the pointer before striding off quickly.
After Harry finished his meal, he retreated to his bed where he sat and shot down the balls one by one. It took him much longer than usual with his terrible eyesight and he was still targeting them when Snape showed up for dinner.
“Has your vision not returned fully?”
“I think it has now.” Harry squinted at Snape, trying to remember if he was normally so fuzzy. “Yeah, I’m pretty sure it has.”
“And your muscles?” Snape spelled food on the table.
“They are fine; I should be able to train like normal tomorrow. What do you have planned?” he asked curiously as he slid into his chair.
“First, dodging while restrained, then, if you do well enough, your favourite activity,” Snape sent the balls away.
“Yes! I can’t wait.” Harry dug into his pork chops.
Snape left, which disappointed Harry. He had had a pretty boring day and wanted to speak just to pass the time. The Death Eater seemed preoccupied with something. Normally he engaged Harry in a bit of conversation when he served him his meals. Harry was curious about what had Snape so distracted, but he had the feeling asking wouldn’t get him any answers. However, if Snape was so preoccupied tomorrow, then he’d ask.
He returned to his bed and read Cosmos until he fell asleep.
~
Ginny was standing in his cell, glaring at the bed.
“I don’t see why we have to sleep here and Snape gets the upstairs bedroom. I hate the bars.”
“This bed is bigger,” Harry reminded her. “Maybe we can put up curtains over the bars.”
“I’m going to sleep with Snape,” she declared and stormed out through the bars.
“Ginny…” he tried to trail after her, but she had vanished from sight. He walked through the library and up the stairs. He searched through the house, finding another library, a garage full of cars, a greenhouse, and a huge cupboard full of black robes.
He finally found Ginny in the kitchen with Snape, who was drinking tea.
“Harry, I’m going to be Snape’s girlfriend now.”
“Wha? Why?”
“He cooks my meals, gives me potions, has a larger room, and is probably better in bed.”
“He is not,” challenged Harry.
“Okay, we will have a contest,” suggested Ginny. “Whoever pleases me more gets to be my boyfriend.”
“Fine,” said Harry. “You two go first.”
Snape and Ginny left the room together.
Harry ran down to his cell and tidied it up. Snape was bigger and had more experience, but Harry thought he could win this battle. Snape had no idea what it was like to be the woman, so he wouldn’t know the best things to do.
When Ginny entered the hallway, Harry was ready. He carefully undressed her and laid her on the bed on her back. He kissed her as he ran his hands over her torso, caressing everywhere but the parts he most wanted to touch. When she was pressing against him in eager anticipation, he shifted down to stroke her between her legs as he sucked a nipple into his mouth.
He licked and sucked and rubbed her until she begged for his fingers. He sat up and cast the cleaning and lubrication spells on her before he smeared lube on his fingers and pressed them inside her. She was warm and wet like Snape’s mouth and he bent his head to lick her as he carefully stretched her.
“Your cock, Harry! Give me your cock!” She demanded and he turned her over and put her on her knees.
He went inside her and it was glorious and he was fucking her hard. He reached around to stroke her and she orgasmed, her come wettening his fingers as she did so. His own orgasm took him hard and he spilled everything he had inside of her.
Once his penis had finished twitching, he carefully pulled out and lay down on the bed, pulling her against him and wrapping his arms around her. He rubbed her back lightly and stroked her hair while they both caught their breath.
“You were so good, Harry!” she gasped. “Way better than Snape! How did you know exactly what I wanted?”
“I just know you,” he slyly replied.
She started snogging him again and it was so good, he fell off the bed and woke up.
A dream? At least it was a straight sex dream with Ginny. The potions always gave him strange dreams. The inside of his pyjama bottoms were a sticky mess and he trudged over to the sink to wash them. He didn’t want Snape to know about his bizarre dream, so he also pulled off his shirt, pretending as though he had stripped in preparation for this lesson early.
Snape stepped into the hallway and scanned Harry’s body.
“I couldn’t wait to train,” Harry informed him as he moved to sit in his chair.
Snape spelled food on the table and sat across from Harry. “I had no idea you were so eager to clean.”
“If you win,” Harry challenged immediately.
“Think before you speak,” Snape reminded him. “Today you must use words that begin with ‘S.’”
“Okay, that shouldn’t be too hard.” Harry grinned. “So…”
“And ‘so’ does not count.” Snape quickly added.
“What?” Harry frowned. “That’s cheating!”
“Words that begin with ‘S,’ Potter,” Snape prodded.
“That’s very Slytherin of you, sir,” Harry said. “And yeah, I guess ‘sir’ doesn’t count either? Oh wait…that didn’t have an ‘S’ word. Um….”
Snape watched him.
“Does ‘sir’ count as a word I shouldn’t say?”
“Try again, Potter,” Snape sipped his tea. “You are supposed to say ‘sir.’”
Harry thought. “Alright… is ‘sir’ a word that doesn’t count for the ‘S’ words in my sentence?”
“Yes, it does not count,” Snape answered.
“I think this will be… not as simple as ‘T’ words.”
“It won’t, but you will never learn to think first if I make it easy for you. Be glad that I didn’t start with ‘W.’”
“That would be… I can’t think of an ‘S’ word for this sentence, sorry.”
“I gather you were trying to say something along the lines of impossible or difficult?” Snape asked.
Harry nodded. “That’s what I wanted to say.”
“You could use severe, strenuous, or an antonym such as simple,” offered Snape.
“I think I’ll need a thesaurus to speak with you,” Harry joked.
“You desperately need a larger vocabulary…especially in the bedroom. I’ve never heard anyone say ‘fuck’ so many times.”
Harry cast his eyes down at his eggs, feeling his face burn with embarrassment. Was he still talking without knowing what he was saying?
“Finish your meal,” Snape said quickly. “We should begin training soon.”
Harry did as Snape asked and quickly completed his morning routine. He stepped out through the bars and followed Snape upstairs to the practice room.
“Clasp your hands together in front of your stomach.”
Harry did so, and Snape conjured the chain. Once Harry was chained, Snape stepped away and started the exercise.
Harry dodged with finesse, avoiding everything Snape sent at him. When it became clear that having Harry’s hands bound in front of him did not impact his ability to dodge, Snape stopped the exercise.
“Now put your hands behind you,” ordered Snape as he removed the chain.
Harry did so, dreading what was to come. He was terrible at dodging with his hands tied behind his back.
“I hope to be finished with this…situation soon,” Harry complained as he walked to the centre of the room.
Snape spelled the furniture soft and began the lessons. “It is important that you master this lesson as efficiently as possible.”
Harry ducked out of the way as two balls raced towards him and stepped to the side of a bookcase to avoid being hit by another. He had gotten better through practice and had only fallen a few times when Snape stopped for lunch.
“Can we do hex dodging now?” He eagerly asked once Snape entered the room with plates of food.
“Potter…” Snape growled.
“Oh yeah…” Harry frowned as he thought. “Can we do the lesson where you send spells at me and I dodge now, sir?”
“You keep using ‘can’ when you mean ‘may,’” Snape informed him. “You should use ‘may’ when you wish to ask permission and ‘can’ when you are questioning your ability. I have no doubt that you are able to perform your favourite lesson, but unless you learn the difference between ‘may’ and ‘can’ I may not let you.”
“Huh, I had no idea. Oops! I mean… fuck, this is hard, er… not simple,” he finally managed to say.
Snape sighed. “I have the feeling this will be the most difficult lesson for you to learn yet.”
“Probably, maybe you should give me a reward if I don’t forget once in a day,” Harry suggested hopefully.
“Are you realizing you will never win our contest unless you cheat?” Snape smirked.
“No!” Harry emphatically shook his head. “I figure I should ease you into giving me stuff since you are going to be doing a lot of it soon. Maybe I will have a special meal made every day of the week.”
“I look forward to a clean house.”
“Oh yeah,” Harry challenged. “If you are so sure that you will win, then take this wager… if I win, I get to be on top during sex.”
Snape stood up. “Let’s begin the lesson.” He spelled away their finished plates and the furniture.
Harry eagerly moved to the centre of the room and watched Snape closely to make sure the Death Eater did not cheat. The exercise began, and Harry easily took out the fake Death Eaters. He approached Snape and danced in front of him.
“I can’t believe you can’t hit me with a spell,” he teased, “I’m right in front of you...seriously.”
“It is far more amusing to watch you run around like a chicken with its head cut off,” Snape retorted, sending a rapid series of six at Harry.
Harry barely managed to escape without being hit. “If I had my glasses and magic I’d beat you.”
“You would still lose,” Snape told him. “And you forgot to use an ‘S’ word.”
“Fu- I mean, shite,” Harry smacked his forehead and almost was hit by a hex.
“You let your guard down far too often,” Snape informed him. “How will you ever defeat the Dark Lord if you keep getting distracted?”
“I’ll distract him, of course! You see… I’ll tell him that I’m you and we’ve polyjuiced each other.” Harry narrowly missed being hit by a curse. “I think I could pull off a… surprisingly good you.” He spoke in his deepest voice, “Potter is an idiot. I’m going to go wank in my potions lab as I think up ways to torture students.”
“If you are trying to provoke me, it won’t work,” Snape informed him. “Besides, I doubt I could act sufficiently brain dead enough to properly portray you.”
“I think you will be undone when Voldemort realizes you don’t have my special skills,” Harry retorted. “Like my reflexes!” He deftly reached out, caught a ball and lobbed it at Snape, smacking the surprised Death Eater in the chest.
“Cheating, again?” Snape tried to confuse him with several faints. “And here I thought Gryffindors had honour.”
“Maybe the Slytherin in you is rubbing off on me.” Harry grinned. “I’m just showing you that if I had magic, a wand, and my glasses, you’d be flat on your back.”
“Don’t be so sure of yourself, Potter,” Snape challenged. He finally managed to hit Harry on the shoulder.
“I guess I’m cleaning another room…soon,” Harry grudgingly admitted.
“It was a valid attempt,” said Snape triumphantly. “And enough for this evening, follow me.”
Harry followed Snape downstairs. He had had so much fun he didn’t really care that he lost. He felt pretty confident that if he had gone up against Snape fully restored, he would have put up a very good fight, even if he didn’t beat him. He was proud of himself for how far he had managed to push his training in such a short time. It was a shame Snape was always a git while he had been teaching Harry at Hogwarts. If Snape had trained him like this before, then Harry would’ve never ended up here.
“So what room will it be this time?” Harry asked as he soaped up his chest. “Oh wait, ‘so’ doesn’t count…um…”
Snape waited in his chair.
“Which room will I… sanitize?”
“Terrible, Potter,” Snape shook his head. “You could say… ‘which section of the house’ or ‘which room will I straighten up.’ You could also refer to certain acts of cleaning such as sweep, scrub, soap, sponge, spruce up, etc.”
Harry turned around and stared at him. “Did you swallow a thesaurus?”
“I read. You should try it sometime.”
Harry rinsed off and climbed out of the tub. “I’d like to. Would you let me search your library for books?”
“Yes, tomorrow after practice,” agreed Snape.
“Brilliant.” Harry began to rub the potion into his legs. “I will be done with Cosmos in another few days. It’s a really interesting book. I like looking at the pictures of what alien species or worlds would look like. I wish Astronomy at Hogwarts was taught from that book. I would’ve enjoyed it then I think.”
Snape helped him massage the lotion into his back. “Do you see what I mean about the dangers of rote memorization? Astronomy consists of much more than just identifying constellations and yet that knowledge is kept from you to inhibit your curiosity about the world around you.”
“How do you make a spell?” Harry asked, intrigued. “I’d like to try it once I get my magic back.”
Snape finished rubbing the potion into Harry’s upper arms and stepped away to wash his hands in the sink. “It is difficult to explain to an individual with no access to magic.”
Harry wrapped himself in a towel and headed back to his cell. “Will you show me once I get it back, then?”
“Once your magic is returned to you, you will defeat the Dark Lord and then we will both be free of each other,” Snape reminded him as he spelled food on the table.
“Oh, yeah.” It startled Harry to remember that he and Snape would go back to hating each other once they were free of this place. He had gotten so used to Snape teaching him that he hadn’t remembered that it was all temporary, and they would both part ways as soon as Harry left the prison. It disappointed him; Snape was a very good instructor and an amazingly powerful wizard. Harry would be a fearsome Auror if he had instruction from someone like Snape.
But Snape wouldn’t help Harry, would he? He had admitted that he wanted Voldemort destroyed not because it was the right thing to do but because he wanted to be free of someone he regarded as a pest. He wouldn’t help Harry after all this was over if he was telling the truth and only wanted Voldemort destroyed to get rid of him. If Snape was planning on becoming the next Dark Lord, then Harry was probably expendable. Snape knew that Harry would stop at nothing to defeat Voldemort and he had to know Harry wouldn’t kill one Dark Lord just to let another take its place. He’d have to kill Harry as soon as Harry defeated Voldemort.
What was Snape really after? Whose side was he really on? Harry suddenly remembered the dream he had had after Voldemort’s torture session. Dumbledore had told him that he asked Snape to kill him and that Harry should trust the Death Eater to look out for him. Harry had dismissed it immediately as pure nonsense, but he wasn’t so sure now. Dumbledore had been poisoned by the Horcrux and, based on Harry’s experiences with the other Horcruxes, it was very probable that such a poisoning would have eventually killed the powerful wizard. However, if Snape was on Dumbledore’s side and was helping Harry because he really was a good guy and wanted to defeat Voldemort, then why had he lied to Harry and told him that it was because the Death Eater wanted to be free of an irksome master? Harry knew Snape was hiding things from him, and lying to him no matter where his true loyalties lay.
“You are normally not this quiet,” Snape observed, watching Harry over his teacup. “What are you thinking about?”
Harry focused on his potatoes. “I was just thinking about all the things I’ll have to learn before I’m ready to fight him,” he lied.
Snape finished his tea and sent the empty cup away. “Dodging is the most important skill for you to have right now. Focus on that first; the rest will come to you.” He paused and then turned his face away from Harry’s. “We should perform tonight.”
“Okay.” Harry cleaned his plate, ignoring the twitch in his penis. Although he hated having sex with Snape, he wasn’t about to turn down an orgasm, much less head. Besides, after Snape had helped him with Avery, he sort of felt like he owed Snape and he didn’t want to be in the Death Eater’s debt.
Once he had finished his meal, he stood up and walked to the bed, dropping his towel on the floor as he climbed onto the mattress and lay on his stomach, facing the wall. He heard Snape undress behind him. It always took Snape a long time to take off his clothes and Harry wondered why he bothered getting fully dressed on the days when they would be having sex. His cock was getting very excited by what was to come and steadily thickened despite his best efforts to ignore it. He didn’t want Snape to see him fully hard; the Death Eater would think Harry wanted it.
Snape finally climbed onto the bed and touched Harry’s hip. Harry rolled over, keeping his eyes away from Snape. He felt the spells cast and then Snape bent down to lick Harry’s left nipple. Harry arched up against his mouth, clenching his pillow tightly as Snape began to tease the right one with his fingers as he worked the left with his mouth. Harry had to bite his lip to stop from moaning aloud in pleasure at the sensation of having his nipples played with. Snape’s hot mouth sucked on the small nubs the way he had sucked on Harry’s cock, and when Snape turned to take the right one into his mouth, Harry was so fucking hard he was worried he was going to blow just from having his nipples sucked.
Luckily, Snape released his chest then and opened the lubrication jar. Harry dutifully spread his legs, staring up at the ceiling as he waited for his favourite part. Snape pushed a finger inside of him and added a second shortly, fucking Harry with them slowly.
He wasn’t going to do it, Harry realised. Snape had given him head that first time to get Harry to relax, not because he was gay.
“Give me your mouth… please…” Harry begged. He thought about refusing to let Snape go inside unless he got head first but the Death Eater could just force him completely if he needed to.
Snape’s fingers stilled inside of Harry. “Look, it’s best to show the Dark Lord one complete session. You don’t need it to relax.”
“I want it,” Harry insisted. “If I am going to be the woman, then I want it.”
“Don’t be stupid,” Snape said impatiently. “Women don’t have prostates.” He pressed his fingers against that spot inside Harry before withdrawing them.
“Please… if you give me three more I’ll even give you one,” Harry offered, sitting up.
“No,” said Snape firmly.
“Fine, two,” Harry persisted. Snape’s refusal, even at the offer of receiving a blowjob, made Harry just want to get head even more.
“No, I don’t want fellatio-”
“WHA-?!” The man was a liar.
“From you,” Snape clarified. “I want to get this whole process finished with as soon as possible. I certainly do not want to lengthen it with other acts.”
“I want to have sex with Ginny, but that isn’t going to happen, is it? If we have to do it, then we might as well make the best of it.” Harry reached forward and circled his fingers around Snape’s cock.
Snape grabbed Harry’s wrist and yanked his hand away immediately. “I don’t want that.” He pushed Harry back down on the bed. “I will do as you request, but you owe me.”
“Fine,” Harry quickly agreed. He was happy to have won this battle. He doubted he’d be in this prison long enough to have to give Snape head more than once at the most.
“You will do any training I give to you without complaint and defer to me in front of the other Death Eaters in order to convince them that I have cowed you,” Snape insisted.
“Okay,” Harry nodded. He had gotten quite good at playing submissive to Snape around others, and he didn’t mind it as long as both of them knew it was just an act.
Snape shifted his body to get into position. He bent down to take Harry into his hot mouth, enveloping the head of Harry’s penis in one swift stroke. Harry moaned in pleasure and curled up one knee, bending his leg to the side so Snape had greater access to his body. Snape firmly held Harry down with the hand he had wrapped around the base of Harry’s cock. He began to bob his head over Harry’s penis, as a finger slid back inside of him. A second one joined the first as Snape rubbed between Harry’s balls with his thumb.
“Oh, yes!” Harry gasped, grabbing his pillow tightly as he tried to get Snape to move his fingers over that spot inside of him. “More… touch me…” Snape figured out what Harry wanted and began finger fucking him while sucking hard on Harry’s prick.
“Fuck, fuck, oh fuck!” Harry cried as he thrust between Snape’s fingers and Snape’s mouth. He had been so hard he was already close to orgasm, his entire body taut as he rushed toward release. “Oh my god, I’m going to come.” He reached down to grab Snape’s hair.
Snape lifted his head and removed his fingers. Harry released him and lay back down, panting for breath.
“Lie down on the bed on your stomach,” instructed Snape.
Harry flipped over and held himself still. He heard and felt Snape move off the bed. After a bit, Snape climbed on the bed, pretending that it was the first time he had approached Harry that evening. He cast the spells again and tugged on the pillow. Harry lifted his head so Snape could slide it out from under him. Snape curled his fingers around Harry’s hip and Harry obediently raised his arse so Snape could slide the pillow under his stomach.
Harry was so hard, he wanted Snape to just go inside so he could orgasm already, but Snape was still pretending and he started with fingers first. Harry bit his lip as he tried to ignore his desperate prick.
Finally, just as Harry was about the scream at Snape in frustration, the Death Eater pressed himself inside. Harry moaned in pleasure and pressed back against him, trying to get him to hurry up. He understood what Snape had been trying to tell him the first time. Snape’s cock slid in easily when he pushed back against it, the thick length stretching him slowly. Once Snape was completely inside, he put his arms on either side of Harry’s upper torso and began to thrust, rocking Harry against the bed. Harry tried to thrust back against Snape’s body, enjoying the feel of skin pressed against his own.
Snape fucked him slow and deep, burying himself to his balls with each stroke. It felt good, but Harry couldn’t come with his dick trapped in the sheets. Luckily, Snape pushed himself up on his hands, removing his body from Harry’s as he continued to thrust. The new position wasn’t hitting Harry right so he propped himself up on his elbows and curled his legs up under him to raise up his arse. The shift in position freed his cock and let Snape strike his prostate completely with each stroke. Yes, fuck yes! Harry bit his lip to stop himself from crying out. It didn’t bother him to be on his knees this time, especially when Snape slid one hand down Harry’s chest and curled his long fingers around the young wizard’s prick.
Harry cried out in pleasure and pushed his cock against Snape’s fingers until his entire body was tingling with electricity and he was pouring himself out on the sheets, the rush of his orgasm leaving him breathless. Snape released Harry’s cock and grabbed his hips. He began to drill into Harry with force, fucking him hard as he neared his own orgasm. Harry squeezed around him, knowing it made the Death Eater come faster, and it wasn’t long before Snape’s body shifted into the jerky shudders that meant he was close. He leaned forward and wrapped one arm around Harry, hugging him tightly as he emptied himself inside.
It startled Harry. Snape had never hugged him before, not even when they pressed together after sex. The Death Eater’s breaths were harsh in Harry’s ear as he panted, still hugging Harry tightly, holding them both up with one strong arm. Finally, he released his grip and carefully removed himself from Harry’s arse.
Harry scooted to the side so Snape could lie down on the bed beside him. The Death Eater did so and Harry pressed into his side, putting his head tentatively on Snape’s chest. Snape wasn’t as stiff as he normally was when Harry first pressed against him. Harry guessed the Death Eater had had a particularly good orgasm. He seemed to like it best when Harry was on his hands and knees.
Harry had hated that position so much in the beginning, but he was starting to like it now. It was certainly better than being chained up and he was glad Snape didn’t do that to him anymore. He liked the fact that he had the biggest range of movement when he was on his knees. He could move forward to lie flat on his stomach or push back to rise up to a kneeling position. Anything that allowed him to control the sex, even something as simple as the position, made him happy.
Plus, Snape sometimes held him in that position. Hugs didn’t make his whole body tingle like they had in the beginning, and Harry certainly didn’t want hugs when he wasn’t in bed with Snape. If Snape had tried to hug him any other time, he would’ve punched him as hard as he could. Hugging during sex was different though. There were a lot of things Harry tolerated and even enjoyed during and immediately after sex that he would ordinarily hate, like kissing. They hadn’t kissed for a while now, and Harry felt heat rush to his face as he remembered how good it had been when they did it before, but he certainly wasn’t going to request it. Kissing was a lot more intimate than blowjobs for some reason. He’d ask for a blowjob but not a kiss.
Finally, Snape pushed Harry away and cast the cleaning spells. He dressed, his back to Harry as he pulled on his clothes. Snape’s refusal to acknowledge his enjoyment infuriated Harry. Snape was trying to pretend he was straight and denying his gay behaviour by pretending that he didn’t enjoy having sex with Harry. Harry wasn’t going to let him get away with it. He didn’t want to have gay sex and especially not gay sex with Snape, but he had to admit that it could be pleasurable. If he could admit that, and he was the woman most of the time, then Snape could admit it too. Snape left in a hurry as soon as he finished dressing.
Harry pulled the sheets over himself. Snape hadn’t said what blowjob ratio he had agreed to, but Harry hoped that Snape would give him two more before he had to give one. It didn’t look too hard, just like trying to eat a really large sandwich. Snape obviously really disliked giving Harry head, and the fact that Harry had managed to make him do it twice made the young wizard quite pleased with himself. Yeah, it was very gay to give another man head, but he was getting several in return for every one he gave, and Snape would never tell anyone or he would have to admit to his own gayness.
Snape stormed back into the hallway. “Get up, the Dark Lord is here.”
Harry stared at him as Snape marched in through the bars and grabbed him by the arm. Snape roughly pulled him from the bed, cast the chaining spell, and then began dragging him upstairs.
Voldemort was here? That was unusual, wasn’t it? Harry’s heart leapt up to his throat as he nervously followed Snape up the stairs. Voldemort was standing in the throne room with Avery, who had a triumphant look on his face. Oh no, had the Death Eater managed to get a second chance to torture Harry?
Snape pushed Harry to his knees in the centre of the throne room and bowed low to Voldemort. “My lord?”
“Has there been any progress with the potion since we last spoke?” Voldemort asked in a cool tone that sent shivers down Harry’s spine.
“No, my Lord, I-“
“Crucio!” Voldemort cast on Snape and Harry flinched and tried to look as small as possible. He stared at the floor, unable to watch Snape being hurt. If Voldemort was this angry at Snape, then he would treat him even worse. “I think you are enjoying the slave too much, Severus. I am disappointed with your lack of progress. Perhaps you need to be motivated again. You will come with me and complete a different task. Avery will be in charge of the slave for a week.”
No! NO! Harry wanted to scream but forced himself to bite his tongue. If he insisted on Snape remaining with him, Voldemort would remove Snape longer just to torture him. He was sinking into blackness and barely heard Snape say, “Yes, my Lord.”
Snape got to his feet and Harry watched with panic and pain as Snape followed Voldemort out the door. Harry wanted to run after him and beg him to do anything but leave him with Avery. He would give him blowjobs every day, he would clean the entire house whenever Snape requested it, he would do anything, anything Snape wanted as long as Snape did not leave him with Avery.
Snape did not look back once, and when the door shut behind his retreating form, Harry could do nothing but stare at the door in shock. This had to be a dream. This couldn’t be happening to him. He should’ve made sure Snape enjoyed having sex with him so he wouldn’t have left like that. So he wouldn’t have been abandoned without a fight, without even a single backward glance. He was drowning and the pain he felt in his chest at Snape’s rejection seemed to tear him apart. He barely noticed when Avery’s fingers curled around his upper arm and he was pulled to his feet.
“You’re mine now.”


Comments
These last chapters were just amazing, but is it me, or are they changing after publishing? When I was reading this one, I couldn't remember something and I've gone back, and I think I've read something new lol! *is confused*
More to say.. The S words LOL! Harry gave up after a while.. but LOL isn't that amazing that all S-beginning English words are just nasty? I was laughing so hard, with all these "sir"s and "sex" and "swallow" lol! I think Snape is falling hard.
"May" I theorise? Snape is obviously bisexual and I think he had a real lover, whom so tragically he lost, (Regulus Black is always a favourite - and not looking in the eye but looking at that black hair made me think.) And spending more time with Harry, either he begins to like him too, and/or he is confusing him with this X person. Who is dead, in my opinion. LOL! All better.
I'm female too and I like how you so succesfully represent male teenager adult anatomy urges. I'm almost starting to feel sorry for them! And another dream with Ginny, which rocked so hard. I'm fantasising that the Weaslette is somewhere reading Snarry fanfic and squee-ing.
Sex and after-sex with Snape were as always, fabulous, and always original, and it made my heart bleed! He hugged him! Yes, yes the old crappy romantic me, but I like to see Snape losing some control and showing weaknesses. And obviously it was one, because Snape could hardly pass any day without Harry (although maybe Harry doesn't realise it that much) to brew or anything and now they were almost caught. I can almost see Snape banging his head after Harry was left with Avery.
I wonder if you're ever going to do Snape's POV, but let's not hurry, he is a man of mystery, and there is always these lost memories of Harry with Lucius. Extreme tortures sections and even more lovelier healing sections are ahead, I think ;) PLEASE DO NOT FINISH THIS STORY, OMG. :D *creeps with horror* Harry must go back to his cell! He's not ready for Voldemort! *lol, pays Avery up* Torture him good, you monster.
I want to make a tiny little request too.. I want that drug-potion to make a final stand! LOL! Maybe Avery has fantasies over it.. *facepalm*
Anyway, I don't seem capable to stop myself from more babbling. Pleaaase, update very very soon.
Your Harry always suspects, he suspects when he is hardly deranged, tortured or blind, but he also keeps thinking why he is being taken cared for and when he discovers some interesting clues about Snape's true alliances. We, the audience are never sure what is that Snape is doing.
I like the suspence. I like the probably that Snape might be speaking with Order, or he might still acting under Albus Dumbledore's orders, or he is completly double -triple -quadruple crossing and actually playing Voldemort's carts, training Harry for his Master. Everything is possible in this fic, and that's why it always keeps getting better.
Waiting for more emotions! :D
Furthermore, no offense to a lot of writers, but most of the fics I read were clearly written by women who didn't understand male sexuality or the mechanics of gay sex. I ignore it in writing porn pieces (instantly rehardening penises, no stretching out before, etc) but it can really be distracting to me in an otherwise great serious fic.
The mush really gets to me too. I mean, I love romance, but it has to come in a manner that I can find believable. Harry and Snape are both such emotionally closed off people and fics where they fall in love first and express their feelings in long conversations about their emotions drive me batty. (I skipped through the first few chapters of the tea series. I like the first NC17 chapter on, but couldn't get through the first ones) I do have guy friends that do that, but they are the exception. Males, especially human males in western society, are aggressively competative with non-related males and bond through alliance formation which is usually the result of activities. It is frowned upon for males in western society to be very expressive about their emotions or to have emotions which are commonly regarded as feminine. When you throw in guys like Harry and Snape who have trouble bonding with others and showing affection, the mush just because they like each other becomes even more unbelievable.
One of the projects I am working on right now deals with this subject, so I find looking at how males interact with non-related males very interesting. I've been very careful to keep my fic in what I understand about biology.
One of the reasons why I want to write this from Snape's point of view is that there is A LOT going on with Snape. I'm not sure how much of that Harry will get a glimpse of, I don't think he will ever know some very important factors driving Snape.
I tell my beta behind the scenes stuff and she was absolutely shocked about some of the things I said. I figure if I don't write a full fledged fic, maybe I should write a little piece explaining Snape's view on this whole subject matter and things he has done.
A lot of dirty talk can be done with "s" words. ;)Maybe they can carry it through to sex sometime.
You have interesting theories on Snape's past. You'll find out more about it eventually.
I've done a lot of research into male sexuality for the fic. It helps that I know a fair amount about the subject to begin with. For the dream scene with Ginny, I asked a bunch of guys I know misconceptions they had about female bodies before they had sex. I am not sure how well I did it, but I tried to write the sex scene so that it can be read as Harry having gay sex with Ginny. That way, it can also be interpreted as representing his desires of how he wants to be fucked in addition to the other interpretations.
I bet Ginny loves slash.
I liked writing Harry's reaction to being hugged. I still laugh whenever I read the part where Harry says he would've punched Snape if Snape tried to hug him outside of sex. Guys are so funny...when I was polling the straight males I know for the blow job ratio for this section (which ended up being 1 to 2.7), there were many who said that they would give/get head from a guy but wouldn't cuddle/hug/give a massage to one. I found it fascinating that some guys would give head before a massage!
This fic will be entirely from Harry's POV. I have a parallel story that is Snape's POV but it is just an outline. I /might/ go back and write it out after I finish this one, but it would be considerably longer than this one and right now I am so focused on finishing this one, I can't imagine doing another of this length.
I'm surprised you want Avery to torture Harry. That wasn't a reaction I expected lol. I guess it makes sense, if you think it will prolong the story.
I am confused as to what you mean by "maybe Avery has fantasies over it"? Do you mean that he uses the drug potion himself?
And the potion! The general idea was Avery borrowing Snape's potion for the second part of torture or something- to use on Harry, because I remember Snape saying that he "prefers his partners to be willing" or something, and Avery showing exactly what Harry is capable of when he is under drug. I find it interesting because I think the only time they could really break Harry is when he is high! I don't know- I'm not even sure if I should request it anymore LOL, you seem having real solid plans! *wonders*
Dark Lord says “BTW, no magic is to be used around him.”
Snape says “Fuck no. I can’t heal him without magic. I can’t brew without magic. I will need magic to restrain and move him. Look, he’s a piss poor wizard, I taught him for 6 years and he doesn’t know shit. He won’t even know how to break out of those cuffs.”
I write it that way first, and then go back and make it acceptable later. Sometimes I throw out whole outlines of things I decide not to do and sometimes I change them out. So I do have plans but they aren't solid.
I don't think that would work to breaking Harry. You see, if Harry is made to do horrible things while under Imperio/Potions/watching others get hurt/etc then he has an excuse. He can blame what he did on the external factors. He would just say, it wasn't me, it was the potion. That's why, when the potion wore off and he was enjoying sex without it, he refused to acknowledge that it had worn off and told himself that he was on the potion the whole time.
They will need to make him do something horrific completely on their orders without any external force to compel him. That would be one way to break him.
Also it did seem to me that Harry was somehow mixing gay sex into his fantasy about Ginny. I wasn't sure if I was imagining it or not when I was reading it.
I sort of wonder if it isn't actually _Snape_ whom Voldy is tormenting by this whole arrangement, because even with creative editing of Snape's memories it would be obvious that Harry isn't suffering nearly as much as Voldy would like.
Unlike many it doesn't seem to me that Snape went into this aware of his own gay inclinations (if he does have any). Of course, he seems to fall into things a bit too easily (as Harry notes), but that may be because of his supreme mental control. It looks to me like he had expected to keep physiology, emotions and mind strictly separate, but it isn't working as well as he thought it would.
I guess that as regards the potion Snape is against the wall, though - he just can't afford to succeed until Harry is ready and his plan (whatever it is) can be put in motion. I wonder if the ending is supposed to be DH-compliant. Personally, I hope not.So much is already AU that it would seem artificial. Also, I never could understand why both DD and Snape would just accept that Harry should make his sacrifice, without even trying for an alternative solution to his soul-fragment problem. And in this version, Snape is even working on something similar for LV already...
I'm sure you are aware that there are a lot of lies and misinformation in this story. Both between the characters and with the characters to themselves. There are quite a few large red herrings. Harry is not an impartial observer and the story is limited by things he understands and remembers.
Okay, I can't restrain myself, so I will say this:
It could also be interpreted that Snape set up the showing Voldemort the memories thing. Yes, Voldemort asked for the first one, but then Snape said that he would give him plenty more memories and thus it was continued. Did he do it because he wanted to have sex with Harry after all? Did he do it because he was trying to please Voldemort and he thought he would like it? Did he do it to cement his claim to Harry in Voldemort's mind? Or was there yet another reason...?
Refreshes page(looks for chapter27) falls to the floor in grief.
I want to read it but I don't. Poor Harry! Dope him up please.
What's this poll you were talking about in one of the comments? I would love to read it. It's always good to know what men think, that way you can out smart them
Hugs but glares,
Dixiebell
I conducted the poll myself. The sample size was <100 and obviously it was biased. However, I was amazed how many of my straight friends agreed to give blowjobs on a one to one basis if they were stuck in prison and had no access to women. I should take the time to conduct a scientific poll and see what the true number is.
I hope he still bites off his penis though ;)
You and I will keep each other company in our grief!!! I'm trying to tell myself that it will be at the very least 24 hours before the next part is up.... but then I can't help myself and I hit the refresh anyway...
*cries cries cries before laying still on the floor next to you*
Dixiebell
But I'm afraid we're in for a bit of a bumpy road.
We'll sit very close to each other and hold each others hands very very tightly!!!
I can't remember if Snape actually says he's not gay. I know he's quite often stated he does not want to have sex with Harry (I think, or does he just say he doesn't want to be forced into doing it? Wording is very important because of what it doesn't say as much as what it says.), but as for the reason...
The one time Harry tells Snape that Harry knows why Snape doesn't want to have sex facing him (ch 18), while Snape is working the lotion into Harry's muscles, Snape is shocked and says something like 'I never wanted you to know.' Of course Harry's stated reason shows he doesn't have a clue as to what Snape is referring to.
My guess is that Snape is referring to Lily; I think he and Lily were lovers, and the big reason that Snape doesn't want to have sex with Harry is that not only does it remind him of Lily, but he really does enjoy it with Harry...(the hug in this chapter tells me that too - that was great BTW). Snape has to work so hard to hide so many things from LV, having to hide his growing feelings for Harry just complicates it.
As to what comes next with Avery - I always enjoy seeing what you come up with; there are ways to torture without doing any damage. And an entire weeks worth - that can seem like an eternity. So many things I could think of, but I don't want to influence you so I won't say what I would do. You're much more imaginative than I am anyway.
Great job with this chapter. I like your information on polling the guys, although I have to say, I'm curious to know if there'd be a difference in American responses and British responses (since that's where HP is suppose to take place). Probably not, but it would be neat to see a real poll one day.
(And I'd really be interested in your Snape's POV fic if you decide to do it. I think that would be a great companion piece to this when this one is all done.)
“How dare you,” hissed Snape as he stalked after Harry, who grabbed up his towel and fled back towards his cell. “I do not enjoy using you anymore than you enjoy being used!”
Harry whirled around to give the Death Eater a death glare. “Of course you enjoy it, you faggot!”
Snape flew at Harry and he tried to dodge but Snape grabbed his upper arm and threw him violently in the cell. “I’m not gay, you ungrateful brat! "
Yes, there are many ways to torture without doing physical damage. I do try to think of as many as I can. You can give suggestions if you want. I've already written most of 27 but I have completely changed chapters before releasing them.
Ooohh... british versus american responses... I used a fairly multicultural sample within america but obviously, even first gen immigrants can be heavily influenced. I wouldn't expect it to be too different, based on what I understand about male sexuality in general.
Now I am thinking of ways to procure unbiased sample sizes in different countries.
Since I live in San Antonio, there is a big Mexican cultural influence here. I think you would get a very interesting response to your poll.
Can Avery use magic? If so, then there seems like you could come up with endless spells which could mimic pain without doing physical harm.
If not, here's my torture scenario (i.e. what would get to me if I was the one being tortured): I can just imagine having Harry restrained and blindfolded so he can't see what's coming. That alone can be torture. Simple fondling would be horrific to Harry, especially if he couldn't see it, and if Avery used the right words (I don't recall what kind of person Avery is - is he smart enough to play mind games?), he can say all kinds of things to get Harry's imagination going (I remember once being told I was swallowing a goldfish - it was just a small peach which had been rinsed so that there was no flavor, but it was still gross - that was my mind listening to the words rather than accepting what I was actually eating).
Even if LV told Avery he can't actually have sex with Harry, so that Harry doesn't get the STD or whatever Avery has, Avery could still penetrate him with all kinds things, touching him all over his body with different items or hot/cold fluids or substances. Simply refusing to let Harry use the bathroom so that he'd soil himself would be repulsive - no showers or baths, minimal food and water...And going through a weeks worth of something like that...
But I really want to see what you come up with. This is a really unique fic in my mind. As many as I have read over the past two years, this one stands out in many ways (good ways that is!).
I find the Mexican view of homosexuality very fascinating. The whole idea that a man can have lots of sex with other men and still be considered straight is very interesting to me. Also, the whole idea of one of the partners becoming a woman to the point where female pronouns are used. I had a friend, who I have since lost contact with, that was writing his dissertation on expressions of homosexuality within Mexian culture. I really should contact him and see if he finished it. We'd discuss pieces of it together and he told me a lot of interesting things.
Avery can use magic against Harry. All Death Eaters are allowed to do so, provided that they don't cause physical harm.
Harry hates being blindfolded and/or restrained. The fact that he allows Snape to do it to him without complain demonstrates his high level of trust for Snape. He's in denial about his own feelings of how much he trusts Snape. He says that he thinks that Snape would kill him if he got angry enough, but even when Snape is engaging in behavior that is highly threatening (ch 24), Harry does not react as he would if he were truly afraid of him. You'll learn if Avery is the mind game type or the physical dominantion type in the next chapter.
We think alike on those points :D I have thought of those things too.
Yay, I am glad you enjoy it. I am supposed to be working on a report, but having these conversations is making me want to write my story and I've been able to write more than I anticipated being able to write. I should have it before the end of the week for sure.
...and what a cliffie!
Where do I begin.....
Harry's dream was hilarious, that he was first in competition with Severus to be the better lover to Ginny, and then to actually have sex with Ginny - but in a distinctly man on man way. Oh Harry - these trysts with Snape are affection you WAY more than you realize, little dude!!!
Snape and Harry copulating.... I must admit, I'm completely stumped as to the motivations for Snapes kindness towards him. I read the comments above and I have been thinking the same thing - why would the Dark Lord want to see such gentle sexual memories, especially when he is so keen to reward his minions with Harry's blood? I've been meaning to bring that up, but I must admit to getting distracted! Very very distracted. That hug... oh, that was more than just a hug wasn't it? Snape had some sort of breakthrough - or epiphany.. but something connected just there.
Oh Avery... this week is going to be very bad for Harry. If memory serves, it was Avery who kept him chained in the closet and fed him dog food, wasn't it? It was also Avery who threatened to carve Harry a second hole, and the one who broke his fingers... He is an insensitive beast who has not one sympathetic bone in his body. I'm afraid Harry is going to learn what being a true prisoner to the Death Eaters is.... Hopefully Avery will show a little restraint and not truly harm him - but if memory serves, he is unimaginative and clumsy - and cruel cruel cruel. I wonder if the little side project the Dark Lord has for Snape is creating healing draughts - because Harry is definitely going to need them.
You know I'm going to be hitting refresh obsessively now until you post the next chapter.
I'll have to write a few more clues that explains why Snape has sex with Harry the way he does. Harry thinks it is odd too but he's not going to openly question it for fear that it will stop. I so desparetly want to talk about the hug, but I can't right now. If I never write Snape's section I will say why Snape did it at the end.
You are confusing Avery with Mcnair. Mcnair locked Harry, fed him dog food, carved him like a turkey, and broke his fingers. Snape has stopped Avery from touching Harry again since that first time when Avery chained Harry to his bed and threatened to cut off hsi genitals and fuck him like a girl.
Avery just might be much more sinister than McNair will ever be!!!
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You've reduced me to an obsessive compulsive with this story!!!
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Both characters are IC, which is always good. The story is unique and original. Compelling. Heart-wrenching. It tears me apart!
I don't have anything to say that hasn't been said before. Everything from the dialogue, the routine, the mood, the ambivalence, the confusion, is perfect. I do love the fact that you're doing research and taking polls to help you make your fic more realistic. I must say, the results ARE very interesting, to say the least.
I've been reading nothing but your story for the past week, and I've about 10+ chapters left to go before I catch up w/ your updates. It saddens me. I don't want this story to end. :( But yes, amazing story. Thank you for sharing.
One thing: Here, Harry mentions that they (him and Snape) haven't kissed in a while -- I can't, for the life of me, remember the times they kissed. It was when Harry was first raped, correct?
They kissed for the first time when Snape drugged Harry: “Give me your mouth.” Harry demanded, not caring where he put it or what he did with it as long as he did something other than keep it away from him. Snape, closing his eyes, leaned forward and kissed him, his velvet tongue caressing Harry’s lips before sliding into his welcoming mouth. (Ch. 10)
As the intensity of the drug wore off, Harry stopped kissing Snape.
Let me know what you think when you reach the end of what's currently posted!