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Invictus Chapter 1/46

Title: Invictus
Author: StarCrossed/Kibatsu
Betas: yivel, Georgia, visikarte, whitestar_alpha
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, Romance, Slash, Het, Drama, Mystery
Pairing: Severus/Harry
Book Length: ~170k
Summary: Severus's POV of the epic Nights of Gethsemane. When the Dark Lord captures Potter, Severus is forced to do his best to protect Potter whilst remaining in the Dark Lord's favour.
Warnings: Highlight to read. *

Non-con sex, dubious-con sex, explicit male/male sex, explicit male/female sex, GRAPHIC torture, slavery, language, drug use, bondage, and much angst.

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Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter and I never will. I wrote this purely to practice my English skills and I will never make a cent off of it. Warner Brothers and JK Rowling own all rights to Harry Potter.
All characters depicted in sexual situations in this story are of legal age to engage in such acts.
This work is intended for adults only and if you are under aged in your location or forbidden from reading, please do not read.





There is no sun without shadow, and it is essential to know the night.





"The Dark Lord has Potter!"

For nearly half of his life, Severus Snape had lived in fear of those words. It had begun with the father, when Severus had done everything in his power to make sure he wouldn't have to hear those words, even though he didn't care at all about the Potters, only her. The best he could do simply hadn't been enough and, when he'd heard the news whispered around Knockturn Alley, he'd been irreparably shattered. There was nothing to do but to try to follow Albus's advice and make certain that her sacrifice was not in vain. It was not an easy task, mostly because the brat had always seemed determined to finish the job for the Dark Lord.

When the boy left the home where Lily's protection kept him safe, Severus had known it was only a matter of time before those words came true. So certain had he been that the Dark Lord would eventually capture Potter that now, as he stared at Amycus Carrow panting in his doorway, he didn't feel the same devastation that had washed over him the night Lily died. The moment wasn't filled with the pain and horror that had woken him at night, leaving his sheets wet from sweat. Instead, there was only a sense of relief that the end was finally beginning and he didn't have to wait around for it anymore.

He turned that fleeting sense of relief into a slow smile and said, "Excellent. Where is the brat?"

"The Malfoys'," answered Amycus, his blind admiration for the Malfoys shining in his eyes.

Severus stood. "I'll be joining the Dark Lord at this moment of triumph. I expect you and your sister to prepare a celebration for tonight in the Great Hall."

Amycus's head jerked up and down like a puppet. "We'll celebrate of course!" He disappeared, the door slamming shut behind him.

Avoiding Albus's eyes, Severus pulled on his travelling cloak. Ever the pessimist, he didn't even have the satisfaction of gloating that he'd been right, for this was not something one could gloat about - no matter how right he'd been.

"Severus," said Albus, his voice tight. "You must help him."

For a moment, Severus considered refusing as the old anger bubbled towards the surface. Typical. He wasn't allowed to know all the plans, but he was expected to pick up the pieces when those poorly constructed plans fell apart. Had he not warned of this? Had he not said that three children who had yet to graduate Hogwarts were no match against the Dark Lord and his devout followers?

Allowing his frustration to bleed into his voice, he asked, "Help him to die?" as he glanced back at Albus.

"It's too soon," said Albus, his light blue eyes fixed unwaveringly on Severus's. "There's still much he needs to do. Take my wand."

Much that Potter needed to do but would never do. Much that was expected of Severus despite the fact that he was never, ever trusted; never considered more than a liability, an object to be expended at the earliest convenience. However, there was no point in rehashing the past. He hadn't the time anyway. He gave a short nod and hurried out the door. Two wands were always better than one in a fight and, although he was loathe to fight with another's wand, Albus's wand had given him considerable power.

As most of the students were away for the Easter holidays, Severus didn't bother taking the halls, but used the window. Flying took a considerable amount of energy and willpower, but he needed to hurry.

Casting concealment spells on himself, he crept toward Albus's tomb and - without looking at Albus's body - broke through the wards and stole the wand - as quickly as he could without leaving any trace. Although there was no reason that Albus's tomb should be guarded, he'd lived too long to take chances and only Apparated away once the wand was safely in his robes and he could be sure that no one would ever know he now had two in his possession.

Although it only took him five minutes to leave Albus's grave and head to a point just outside Malfoy Manor, his improved Apparition needed to remain a secret if he were to have any chance of escaping. As the minutes weighed him down, he fingered the various potions in his pockets, testing and re-testing his memory as to the use of each one. How would he grab the boy from under the Dark Lord's nose? How would he fight his way through Malfoy's wards? How would he find a place to deposit the boy in safety? He, himself, would not live long after defying the Dark Lord. The mark on his arm made sure of that. Despite his best attempts, he hadn't yet figured out how to remove it, and he'd never be able to hide as long as the Dark Mark chained him in place.

Death did not scare him. Failing her did.

For far too long, he stood hidden on the grass, making and discarding plans, hating himself, Albus, the Dark Lord, but most of all, the stupid, stupid brat for being so utterly useless. Finally, he reckoned that enough time had passed and enough confusion ruled the Manor to grant him entrance without questions greeting his arrival.

Changing his features to those of confident triumph, he strolled onto Malfoy's property, pretending that he didn't know where the wards truly began.

He hoped that he'd been one of the first to hear the news, but other figures were moving across the lawn and more were entering through the main doorway.

He had no decent plan of attack.

He gave a smile and a nod to Avery who returned the gesture.

He couldn't fight them all.

He greeted Narcissa and exchanged the common pleasantries before stepping into the room where a crowd was gathered, circled around the centre like vultures around prey.

He hadn't the healing potions to repair the damage.

He took in the room, the dozens of Death Eaters gathered, and the growing number of those arriving, and the Dark Lord standing triumphant, surrounded by earnest followers.

He'd never escape with Potter.

Ignoring the strange, wet-sounding noises that were probably screams, Severus strode straight to the Dark Lord.

"My Lord." He bowed the required amount, the perfect blend of admiration, fear, and hunger filling his voice and face. When he rose, he shared a nod of acknowledgement with Lucius, exchanged glances with Mulciber's father, and ignored Bellatrix. The fact that Lucius and Bellatrix were standing by the Dark Lord and not down there with the boy could only mean that they'd already had their turns.

He'd never, ever be able to heal him.

"Severus." The Dark Lord's face twisted in a look that was probably meant to be a smile. "So good of you to join us. This must be a dream come true for you."

"I have dreamt of this often, my Lord." If he hadn't taken his special version of Dreamless Sleep every night for the past seven years, it would have most likely been true. Knowing that he'd never be able to escape with Potter, Severus changed his tactics. "Although I hesitate to request such a thing in the moment of your triumph, I feel I would be failing you unless I requested a private audience."

Bellatrix cackled. "Intend to beg for the baby Potter's life?"

Severus ignored her. To the Dark Lord he said, "I've recently come into some information which may prove useful to your Lordship."

The senior Mulciber had never liked Severus as much as the son. "There is no reason to keep it private," he said, looking down his nose as much as a shorter man could. "We are all loyal supporters of the Dark Lord."

The Dark Lord said nothing, only looked at Severus expectantly, and Severus knew his chances of getting a private conversation were very slim. Taking a deep breath, he said, "I have reason to believe that Dumbledore suspected that Potter's death would harm your Lordship."

Bellatrix let out a loud snort and cried, "A likely story!"

Unable to contain himself and because he knew it would amuse the Dark Lord, Severus snapped, "Quiet, you stupid bitch!"

She puffed herself up to return the insult, but the Dark Lord, his unnatural eyes never leaving Severus's, raised a hand and said, "Let him speak, Bella," and she cast those simpering eyes on him that made Severus want to be sick all over her robes.

Continuing to weave his tale, Severus said, "As I was searching through his desk, I cast a few spells which revealed writing that has been imprinted upon other parchment by accident. I found some writing, which I then transcribed to a scroll." Reaching into his robes, Severus pulled out one of his private potion collection data sheets which contained nothing but numbers. Handing it to the Dark Lord, he said, "It's code. It's based upon a Muggle encryption system whereupon prime numbers, that is, natural numbers that are only divisible by one and themselves-"

As Severus had expected, the Dark Lord didn't let him get far. His eyes had already begun losing interest with the word 'Muggle' and already he was impatient to know the reveal. "What does it say?"

Severus displayed an expression of confusion and humility. "I'm afraid I don't exactly know for certain - it's highly complex."

Bellatrix snorted and Severus imagined grabbing her by the hair and slamming her into the marble floor over and over again until there was nothing left of her skull.

Instead of living out the delicious fantasy, he simply said, "It's in reference to the situation with the Diary." Lucius's face displayed no reaction but Severus knew the reminder was an unwelcome one and could only hope his friend would forgive him. It would be insulting to the Dark Lord's intelligence to pretend that he didn't know about the Horcrux situation, but too much information given would be seen as a threat that needed to be neutralized immediately. He had to show himself to be discreet and give just enough to let the Dark Lord work it out without allowing Lucius or Bellatrix to get a hint. It was suicide to let the Dark Lord know he knew about the Horcrux, but it was a gamble he had to take. He'd kept himself alive this long and he was fairly confident he could prove himself worthy enough to keep alive for at least a few more weeks. Carefully, he said, "In the notes, Dumbledore seems to speculate that the reason the brat was able to speak Parseltongue and gain entrance to the Chamber was that your spell was so powerful, it broke through the brat's mother's protection and gave him some of your abilities. When you took his blood, you reinforced the bond between you."

Thankfully, the Dark Lord wasn't an imbecile and that was all Severus needed to say to make the red eyes narrow slightly.

"I see," he said. Turning to the jackals still surrounding Potter he said, "Release him." The crowd parted and Potter, who had been floating in the air, fell to the floor with a sickening crack when his skull collided with the marble.

Definitely not enough potions to heal all the damage. It didn't matter anyway. It wasn't as if the boy had ever bothered or needed to use any part of that thick matter between his ears.

"My faithful servants," said the Dark Lord. "I think it would be a shame to get rid of the new toy so soon after acquiring it. There are many uses to be found for it yet. Jugson, fetch the best Healer you can find."

"Certainly, my Lord." Jugson bowed and scurried away.

Both Bellatrix and Lucius wore calculating expressions as they stared at Severus. Lucius would try to pry the information out of him over several friendly conversations. Bellatrix would continue trying to destroy him. She would never trust him, but he preferred it that way. She was the perfect villainess for him - too stupid to cause any real harm, but dogged and trusted enough that the Dark Lord would consider him almost completely 'under watch' and therefore less likely to need extra surveillance.

His reptilian eyes searching Severus's, the Dark Lord said, "There must be a celebration at Hogwarts tonight. Everyone must know."

"Of course, my Lord," Severus readily agreed. "I've already put in the order. If I have your permission, I would like to show him off in front of the students as proof of your triumph and as an example." Letting a dark smile cross his face, he added, "Once he's healed, he can be tortured in ways that won't harm his body."

"The world will know of my triumph," said the Dark Lord and Severus doubted the boy would ever be let anywhere near Hogwarts again. He didn't care; his primary duty was to the school. Getting the Dark Lord to kill the boy would be a challenge now that the Dark Lord was aware of the Horcrux, but he was sure he could devise a way.

Always one to kiss arse, Lucius asked, "Shall I invite reporters here tonight?"

"No," said the Dark Lord. "Only the faithful deserve to be in my presence tonight. We will show them our prize tomorrow. Send the Ministry officials and reporters to Hogwarts. Severus can show them what he's done with the castle as well as report on the victory."

Rather, the Dark Lord wanted to carefully screen everyone he let anywhere near Potter. Severus didn't mind. The Carrows were running rampant through Hogwarts which couldn't end well. He needed to go back and prepare for the celebration, as well as plot with Albus on how to get the Dark Lord to kill Potter.

He said, "I will set to work on that immediately." Bowing properly to the Dark Lord and ignoring Lucius and Bellatrix, he turned and strode from the room.

~


Shutting the door to the Headmaster's office behind him, Severus slowly shrugged out of his cloak before setting up privacy wards with a deliberate sluggishness. It was petty to ignore Albus and force him to ask the questions, but sometimes those tiny victories of force were all he had.

Never one to tolerate being left in the dark for long, Albus asked, "What happened?"

"I told the Dark Lord about the Horcrux."

Albus sucked in a fake breath and Severus snapped, "Do you think I had another choice? Your miserable mess of a plan was doomed to fail from the start." Unlocking the liquor cabinet, Severus fixed himself a whiskey on the rocks.

"Where is Harry?"

Are you still trusted? How did you convince him? Did he torture you? There were never any of those types of questions and Severus didn't know why he bothered being bitter after all this time other than through force of habit. Taking a gulp from his glass, he dropped into his chair and said, "The child is at the Manor and has most likely been damaged beyond repair. I can still convince the Dark Lord-"

"You must take care of him."

You must. Always you must. Swiveling around in his chair to look at Albus's portrait, Severus said, "I must remain at Hogwarts and the Dark Lord would never allow the boy to be brought here - not when so many of his allies lurk about."

Albus said, "Harry is our primary concern. Without him Voldemort will never be defeated. Hogwarts will survive without you - Harry will not."

Exasperated, Severus bit out, "Potter won't survive. That's the point. It doesn't matter what they do to him as long as the hand that delivers the final blow belongs to the Dark Lord. The Dark Lord will do his best to heal him and I'll do my best to make sure the Dark Lord kills him."

For several heavy seconds Albus didn't respond, then he quietly said, "There's a chance Harry will live."

It was enough to knock Severus speechless and, for a moment, he could do nothing but sit there like the stupidest first year, staring at Albus's portrait with a blank face. Hadn't Albus said over and over again that Potter must die? Hadn't Albus forced him to agree to the plan out of respect for Lily because the idea that Potter could survive was beyond all hope? Lies upon lies! He didn't know which of his masters was worse - at least the Dark Lord never pretended to be anything but a manipulator. Albus was the most masterful manipulator of them all, holding his cards close to his chest as he led you straight to the sacrificial altar with a kind smile.

Severus didn't mind being sacrificed as long as it supported the cause and there was no other option. He did mind being lied to.

Albus knew this and therefore said nothing, simply waiting for the explosion.

If Albus had been alive, Severus would have been more dramatic in the demonstration of his outrage, but a portrait simply wasn't a proper target for a fit. It was too easy to destroy. Pinching his nose as he closed his eyes, he said, "You said his death was necessary to defeat the Dark Lord."

Calmly, Albus replied, "I didn't want to get your hopes up."

Severus snorted. Hope? When had he ever had that since she died? The only reason of which Severus could think for the lie was that Albus had wanted him to believe the outcome was futile in order to give his all to protect the boy. After all, if the boy only needed protection until the moment of his death, there was no reason for Severus to work hard to remain alive in order to continue to protect him. Shooting an accusatory glare at the portrait, Severus said, "If you want me dead, Albus, there are far easier ways to go about it."

Albus's brows drew close together. "That wasn't why I didn't tell you."

"Then why?" Severus hissed. "Why? Don't give me that bullshit about 'my hopes'. You've never given a damn about them before."

Sighing, Albus stroked his beard. "In order for Harry to survive, certain factors must be in play. The Horcrux must be destroyed by Voldemort without any harm coming to Harry himself. It's nearly impossible, but not entirely. Besides, Harry hasn't finished the task I've entrusted to him."

"I'll finish that task," declared Severus. "And you will tell me about it. Now."

"Severus-" Albus began, but Severus didn't let him finish, cutting him off with a wave of his hand.

In a cold voice he said, "I'll get the answers from you or from him. It's your choice."

Albus sighed, but he wasn't willing to let his golden boy get hurt and he said, "He needs to finish hunting down the other Horcruxes."

Relieved and disappointed, Severus said, "That's it? Did you really think I thought the brat to be the only Horcrux?"

"No, Severus," said Albus in his best professor's voice. "I refused to give you confirmation for fear Voldemort would take that information and - don't look at me like that Severus - I still believe those fears to be well-founded."

Anger bursting through his gut, Severus said, "I could have helped him."

"You did."

"I sent him one bloody Patronus! This could've been over months ago!"

"Severus, please," said Albus and he managed to pull off that small, sad child look that Severus hated. He hated children, so he had no idea why it worked on him, just that it did, even as much as he willed it not to. He turned away to stare at his drink as Albus said, "I couldn't allow the chance that the Dark Lord would learn of Harry's task-"

"So you gave it to a stupid child who can't master Occlumency?"

"So I kept you in the dark to make certain there was only so much Voldemort could take from you."

Or that Severus could tell the Dark Lord. The argument was pointless. Albus would do his best to convince him and Severus knew him too well to believe it. He always came to the same conclusion in the end - Albus played to win, himself or Potter be damned. It was nice to believe otherwise for a short while, but in the end, he had only himself to fully rely on when it came to protecting Potter. Massaging his temples, Severus asked, "How can I ensure that Potter lives?"

"You must make sure that you stay close to him. I know you are reluctant to leave Hogwarts, but he's a child thrown into a den of wolves. They'll tear him to pieces."

Severus didn't need to be told that. "I must do as well in order to maintain my cover. The boy you knew will be destroyed - if he isn't already."

In his fatherly tone, Albus said, "You're a skilled liar, Severus. I'm sure you'll manage to find a way to limit the damage they will inflict on him. First, Ronald Weasley and Hermione Granger need to be found and kept safe. As long as you protect their lives, they can be used to help hunt the rest of the Horcruxes. Second, you need to convince Voldemort to give you some control over Harry's care in order to prepare him for his escape and for the completion of his tasks. Make sure that he is healed as much as possible. Finally, Hogwarts must be protected while you are away."

He'd planned to defend Hogwarts to the death if need be and he'd always thought that Albus had intended the same. The only reason Albus would tell him to abandon his post now - even temporarily - was that Potter needed him more. Although Potter had once been the only thing that mattered, ever since he'd learnt of the boy's fate, he'd focused his attentions on Hogwarts and now he couldn't help but say, "If I leave, the Carrows will be in control." Although Hogwarts' laws prevented them from taking over the position of Headmaster - only a former professor with tenure could become Headmaster - he would no longer be able to effectively temper their cruelty and stupidity.

"I know," said Albus, his face pinched. "But we have no other choice."

~


The celebration was easy enough to prepare and did nothing to impede Severus's plotting to gain another audience with the Dark Lord. Surprisingly, the Dark Lord sought him out even before he had a chance to begin his campaign.

Hurrying to Malfoy Manor an hour before the party was scheduled to begin, Severus swept past the small crowd still gathered in the foyer, back to the sitting room where the Dark Lord was sitting with Lucius.

"Severus," the Dark Lord said the moment he entered the room, "Is everything prepared?"

Bowing low, Severus answered, "All the guests have been invited and the speeches prepared. Will your Lordship be attending?"

"I will not. Lucius will aid the Carrows in making a celebration befitting our victory. You will come with me to the location where the boy will be kept."

Although Severus knew he was supposed to argue for this point, it was hardly what he wanted and he let some of his displeasure show. After all, he was the Headmaster and this was an opportunity for him to show off his power. Not to mention that the Dark Lord's hurry and authoritative tone suggested to Severus that he was to remain with Potter for longer than a simple examination. "You wish . . . . for me to examine him?" Better to pretend he suspected less than he did.

"I will entrust you with being his guardian," said the Dark Lord.

Lucius's mouth thinned ever so slightly and, for the first time, Severus noticed the tightness in his eyes. He wanted control of Potter. Why, Severus couldn't begin to imagine, but if Lucius should let him see his displeasure, then it could only mean Lucius wanted Severus to see how much he desired the position and grant it to him. Unfortunately, Severus needed to be Potter's guardian - no matter how much he didn't want to. Still, hurrying to accept the position would be seen as suspicious.

As outwardly submissive as he could be, Severus said, "But my Lord, I cannot brew for you if I am away from Hogwarts, I-"

"I'll have a lab built for you," said the Dark Lord, and Severus knew that no amount of arguing would save him from the post. At the same time, the mention of the lab sent a thrill of delight through him. As long as he proved himself useful, the Dark Lord wouldn't try to kill him immediately. He surely would eventually - Severus knew too much - but through brewing, Severus could prove himself indispensable - at least for the time being.

Lucius sipped his wine, gazing at Severus expectantly, but Severus couldn't argue for his friend - even if he'd wanted to. With what Severus knew and the boy so valuable, the Dark Lord could not be persuaded against his current course of action.

"I'll gather my supplies, my Lord." Severus turned to leave.

"I'll have your supplies sent to you," said the Dark Lord.

Fuck. He wasn't even trusted to return to Hogwarts when he'd just left it the moment before? Or was it just a sign of the Dark Lord's impatience?

"Forgive me, my Lord, but I've placed my most important belongings under seals of protection. They can't be touched by another without causing harm. I understand that you wish to hurry and I can guarantee that I'll have everything important ready in one hour." The Dark Lord's mouth tightened, but Severus hurried on, "My private potion supplies should only be touched by an individual who has experience dealing with dangerous, volatile substances. I'd prefer to handle them myself, but if that isn't possible, I can provide you with a list of Potions Masters I trust. There are many ingredients that I require if I am to be able to brew the type of potions your Lordship will find most useful, and the more time I have to collect them, the more I can bring."

As the Dark Lord trusted very few himself and wanted only the best for his personal potions, he relented and said, "You have two hours. Bring as many potion supplies as you are able. As the boy will be easy to watch, I'll expect you to brew even more for me than I currently ask."

"Certainly, my Lord." Giving a low enough bow, Severus turned on his heel and hurried from the room as fast as he could. Two hours wasn't nearly enough time, but it would have to be sufficient and, if he asked for more, he'd most likely be given an escort.

The last thing Severus wanted was an escort.

At Hogwarts, there wasn't much he really needed to do, since he'd been prepared for the possibility of immediate escape for years and already carried his most important belongings with him everywhere. As he was shoving as many extra books, scrolls, and potions into his pockets as time would allow him to gather, Albus said, "I know that you and Harry have had a lot of conflicts in the past, but-"

Unwilling to hear a long speech about how he should give his all for the witless boy, Severus interrupted with, "Your saviour has nothing to fear from my hands. And yes," he added before Albus could speak again, "I'll do my best to ensure that he doesn't off himself too early. That will be the true challenge in this - saving the boy from himself."

Normally quick to rise to the defence of his golden child, Albus said nothing.

After he'd packed the basics, Severus called the house-elves. "I shall be leaving Hogwarts," he told them. "While I am gone, you are to see to it that each student remains free from harm. If you believe that a student is in danger of death or serious harm, take him or her to a safe spot straight away." The act would save more Gryffindors than Slytherins, but he could always give the Dark Lord the excuse that he didn't expect Gryffindors to be viewed as in danger enough to need to be saved. After he'd sent the house-elves away, he called in the students that had stayed over the Easter holidays. He wished there were more of them, but he had to make do.

In his best 'angry professor' voice, he said, "I'll be temporarily leaving Hogwarts. I'll remain Headmaster and while I'm gone, you will treat the Carrows with as much respect as you show me. If I hear that you are causing trouble-" he glared at the two remaining Gryffindors. "-I'll punish you when I return."

They all nodded and the Gryffindors pretended to look scared, but Severus knew that their nasty little minds were already dreaming up ways to make the Carrows' lives miserable, which was exactly his intention. He'd effectively gutted the Carrows of any authority and he doubted they had the intelligence to regain it. Unfortunately, the more creative of the Gryffindors had long since fled, but Severus had no doubt that the current batch of students could do worse than what had been done to Umbridge.

Satisfied that Hogwarts would survive his absence and the Carrows would have a miserable time running it, Severus left for Spinner's End to pack a few more belongings. He wasn't taking much, but then, how long would it take to convince the Dark Lord to kill Potter? Maybe a month at the absolute most. Getting the boy prepared? That would be the true challenge. But there were always potions and spells to make the brat behave if he proved to be difficult.





The quote is from Camus's The Myth of Sisyphus.



Chapter 2

Comments

( 47 comments — Leave a comment )
bk7brokemybrain
Jun. 12th, 2010 04:07 am (UTC)
WOOT! Here we go! I love seeing Snape's POV. It's so sad to know how doomed Severus feels about his chances and Harry's.
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:34 pm (UTC)
Indeed. Poor Severus. ::snuggles him::
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kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
Hehe. Thanks so much. I was worried I wouldn't be able to do Severus justice, but I have a lot more confidence now!

I didn't find Voldemort scary at all in canon. He seemed ridiculous and ineffective. He's the only character I've deliberately changed.
critterel
Jun. 12th, 2010 05:24 am (UTC)
I absolutely love your Severus/Albus conversations. I can just imagine Severus rolling his eyes at Albus. This is simply priceless and I LOVE it. I cannot wait to see what happens next.

What is the situation with the epilogue for NOG? Is it going to be after Invictus or is it seperate entirely? I am dying to know what the deal is with Severus! (I have this suspicion you are going to make us wait... but I sort of hope not.) I am really loving Invictus though. Seeing what Severus' take on the situation was is very interesting. Is Invictus going to be really long like NOG or will it be shorter?

Clare
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:51 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you love it.

If I have the time, I'll write the epilogue at the same time. Originally, I was going to write a small epilogue, but my betas are demanding that I take the time to write a longer one (a fic in itself). If I do that (which I'm leaning to), it won't happen until after Invictus.

Invictus will be much short, I'm estimating that it will be half as long as NoG. I'm going to try to make it shorter, but I have a habit of writing a lot!
critterel
Jun. 13th, 2010 10:48 pm (UTC)
Actually it makes quite a bit of sense that it could be half as long because a lot of NOG was Harry wondering what was going on and guessing and training. Since we already know about the training sessions, that doesn't have to be spelled out as much and Severus *does* know his plans which makes it a great deal simpler to spell out than to spend a long time agonizing over which option someone may pick.

I have to say it again though...I've repeatedly rec'd this fic as one of the best portrayals of Snape I've seen. I really love your Severus Snape. He's very real, and his dialogue continues to crack me up with its wry, witty *Snapeness*.

I am intently curious how many times and how much of Harry's memory was altered as I don't think that, as yet, has been revealed.
Clare
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 10:57 pm (UTC)
I'm entirely in love with Severus Snape and I hope that shows through Invictus.

Invictus would actually be a lot longer if I wrote it like NoG simply because Severus does SO MUCH more. In NoG, we get a blow-by-blow account of everything Harry experiences that he remembers experiencing. There's no need to do that for Invictus, in part because we already know a lot of what has happened through Harry and also because I'm trying to learn to be more economical in my writing. Still, there's a lot of drama and intrigue which I need to work my way through.

Plus, all those lovely missing scenes :D
critterel
Jun. 13th, 2010 11:05 pm (UTC)
In case you didn't know... there is a wonderful email group called Severus sighs on yahoo groups. They have a Insane Journal set up as well. (If you join you could have seen how many times I posted lol... "She's posted NoG again... All of you who were waiting, NoG is now finished!" etc.

Since you said you are a major fan, thought you might want to know. : )

Clare
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
Could you please give me a link to the insane journal? What is the group for?
critterel
Jun. 13th, 2010 11:43 pm (UTC)
The IJ is fairly new. It was a chat group on yahoo at first and then they started having little writing challenges. The people are very friendly and encouraging. Here is the link and the description from the profile.

http://asylums.insanejournal.com/severus_sighs/profile

I shall copy from their post on the profile as it is worded better than I could do:

"This Group was formed by the Webmistresses, a small faction of the Harry Potter fandom, so they might enjoy and engage in free, unfettered, adult discussion on all things related to Severus Snape and, inherently, encompassing the best of the world of Harry Potter.

Discussions and general chit-chat takes place at the Severus *Sighs* Yahoo! Group. Its satellite sites here at IJ and on DW are restricted to members' fanfiction and fanart written in response to Severus Sighs' challenges and fests, as well as the occasional gift.

The Webmistresses"
thekatandmonkey
Jun. 12th, 2010 05:27 am (UTC)
I love how much Snape hates Bellatrix and how he wants to bash her skull in. I always hated her, she's such kiss ass. Most of the time I see her as an over eager ugly dog that humps her master's leg whenever possible.

Anyways, Yeah Invictus!

On a final note when can we expect the last chapter of The Bunny Tale series?
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:53 pm (UTC)
I hate her too, but I love her for a character, if that makes sense. I agree, she's just an overly friendly dog.

I hope to have the last chapter of the Bunny Tale series by next weekend. I've been swamped with work!
ispyanonymously
Jun. 12th, 2010 05:57 am (UTC)
More, more, more! Awesome start. I can't wait for the first Harry/Snape face-off. Life is just more enjoyable when they are screaming at each other.
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:53 pm (UTC)
I completely agree!
wolf_willow31
Jun. 12th, 2010 02:41 pm (UTC)
Life is just more enjoyable when they are screaming at each other.

LOL! Yes, then, and when Severus is being sarcastic to Albus.

I love Severus when he's strong, snarky, and scheming. This is going to be so much fun!

I am so looking forward to Chapter 2! More, please!
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:53 pm (UTC)
I think you will have a lot of fun with Invictus ;)
voiceless_angel
Jun. 12th, 2010 09:23 pm (UTC)
Oh poor gloomy Snape.

Love reading Snape's point of view. You write so incredibly well!
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:54 pm (UTC)
Thakn you so much!
bastetcat7
Jun. 13th, 2010 02:15 pm (UTC)
*Sending hugggggs*
kibatsu
Jun. 13th, 2010 09:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!
(Anonymous)
Jun. 15th, 2010 05:59 am (UTC)
Definitely got to agree with the people before me.

This is as very bit as epic as I expected it to be! I love Snape's conversation with Albus' portrait. It's one of the few times you get to see him argue without being with Potter!

This was a perfect way to whet our appetites for more! Keep it up!

VL
kibatsu
Jun. 19th, 2010 08:11 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Severus does love to argue, not just with Potter (although he does make it easy).
(Anonymous)
Jun. 15th, 2010 06:15 am (UTC)
Definitely got to agree with the people before me.

It's refreshing to hear Snape's side of the story. In fact, I love Snape's conversation with Albus' portrait. It's one of the few times you get to see him argue and irritated without being with Potter!

This was a perfect way to whet our appetites for more! Keep it up!

VL
(Anonymous)
Jun. 18th, 2010 03:09 am (UTC)
TheMistressDianna is anxious
Okey....ARGHH!! You are gunna kill me, it's worse then waiting for the next book in a series, cause atleast then you get a whole book, but I only get to wait for one chapter....honestly, my poor heart can't take it...Do I have any options? I could beta read....I read Nights of gethsemane in less then a week....the whole thing since you posted the last part the day I finished them...
kibatsu
Jun. 19th, 2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna is anxious
You're like me when it comes to reading. I also prefer to read in huge chunks. When it comes to epic stories, I like to save them and plow through them.

I need to write Invictus first, as bad as that sounds. I have a lot written in a notebook, but not nearly enough typed up.
(Anonymous)
Jun. 21st, 2010 01:21 am (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna is anxious
i can't write in a notebook, my handwriting is so crappy it's illegible even to me half the time, and I hate having to translate myself as i type. But yeah, oh and by the way I love your icon, I was walking down the street the other day and it popped into my head randomly and made me giggle. Sorry I'm a tad bit obsessive when i get stuck in something, LOL but i swear not stalker levels LOL
pomme_noir
Jun. 18th, 2010 03:57 am (UTC)
Oh I love your Severus. He just the right amount of snarky, sulky and ruthless. I don't know if I should be happy or sad that Invictus is going to be shorter than NOG. I'm convinced you could writing in this verse forever and I would be happy. Out of curiosity, how many chapters of this story have you written so far?
kibatsu
Jun. 19th, 2010 08:14 pm (UTC)
I have the first two written and a timeline/outline based upon NoG. I'm trying to work on economy in my writing (which may or may not work), but we'll see how well that goes...
(Anonymous)
Jun. 21st, 2010 01:23 am (UTC)
TheMistressDianna@yahoo.com is interested
I mainly want to read it for one scene. Where Harry is getting turned on by Snape rubbing his mouth and a few minutes later Snape snaps at his for licking his fingers. I interpreted it in an amusing way and i want to know if I was right, but that is really far in...
kibatsu
Aug. 28th, 2010 08:55 pm (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna@yahoo.com is interested
I remember that scene quite well.....
hambares
Jul. 3rd, 2010 04:25 am (UTC)
I missed the posting of this! But already can't wait for more!
kibatsu
Aug. 28th, 2010 08:55 pm (UTC)
Hopefully I'll have it for you soon!
ema43
Aug. 15th, 2010 09:52 am (UTC)
Hi,when will be post next chapter? Please hurry I can't wait!;-)
kibatsu
Aug. 28th, 2010 08:54 pm (UTC)
Hopefully soon!
(Anonymous)
Aug. 22nd, 2010 05:30 pm (UTC)
ooooh please have more soon! i finished NoG last night, and now i'm caught up with invictus...but now i'm left hanging! you are a fabulous writer, and i love how both fics are so close to cannon. you rarely see that these days (or at least i rarely do)! please keep up the good work!

Gwenhyfar_Beati, from HPFandom
kibatsu
Aug. 28th, 2010 08:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm working on it now.
jazzy2may
Sep. 8th, 2010 07:25 pm (UTC)
I really hope you will update soon, I finished NoG and absolutely loved it and could wait to see this story through Snapes pov, and then I read that Remix Snape/Harry that feeling he has at the end "have her love and give him pain" or something like that, it's an intense motivation, intense feelings Snape sure has. He's a very intense character and a genius. I really think you portrayed him well in NoG. Hope Invictus comes along soon.
kibatsu
Oct. 16th, 2010 04:00 am (UTC)
I will hopefully be posting more Invictus soon. It was difficult to start, but now I've gotten into the swing of things again.
(Anonymous)
Oct. 6th, 2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
TheMistressDianna Needs More!
Ok so...been way to long...where are you Love? We need our fix LOL it's been months, Unless you're dead could you pretty please update?
(Anonymous)
Oct. 14th, 2010 06:43 am (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna Needs More!
I'm with you. Please don't tell us you've abandoned this fic :(
kibatsu
Oct. 16th, 2010 03:58 am (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna Needs More!
I've not! I never could.
kibatsu
Oct. 16th, 2010 03:57 am (UTC)
Re: TheMistressDianna Needs More!
Sorry, I've been busy with life. I hope to be able to post Chapter 2 soon though! I've been working on it steadily recently.
alphawolfnami
Dec. 15th, 2010 10:22 am (UTC)
Ohhhh-Ooohhhh... I cannot breathe. Augh. My gosh.

I finished NoG in two days, and I have not slept in two days. My gosh.. I don't care that I'm falling asleep in class, that my grades are slowly slipping through my fingers... After I finally found your LJ and Invictus... Oh, I cannot wait!! Please, please. Whatever you do, please continue Invictus. I wanted to post a review on AFF but couldn't calm myself to. I wanted to read Invictus with such wind abandon that I couldn't even think about hw or food or even taking a break to go to the bathroom. lol.

I absolutely loved NoG, by the way. I enjoyed and indulged in every single word you typed and despite the fact that people were turned off by the brash severity of your violence scenes.. I just loved them and ate it up! Please, please... I beg of you. I will love you forever. I have dipping sauce as well. I will be your dipping sauce bitch. Haha. Just please finish NoG and Invictus!

Your style of writing is immensely unique and just entrancing. You have am ability to capture such deep emotions in your words and I cannot stop my obsession with NoG and now, Invictus.
kibatsu
Dec. 15th, 2010 05:38 pm (UTC)
I never abandon fics! I've been steadily working on Invictus when real life allows me. I admit that it was difficult to get through the first few chapters, but now that Harry's up and causing trouble, they are flowing along.

Thank you very much and I hope you enjoy what's upcoming in Invictus.
frakkin_addict
Feb. 22nd, 2011 07:29 pm (UTC)
Really loved the conversations between Snape and Dumbledore's portrait.

It always amazes me how Snape manages to fool the Dark Lord. I can't imagine any one else even coming close to pulling off what he does.

(Oh, and his flight out the window was uber-cool. So glad you put that in there.) :D
kibatsu
Mar. 9th, 2011 08:38 pm (UTC)
I'm personally in love with Severus's ability to fly. I'm a bit disappointed that they made everyone able to fly in the Potter movies (although it does look awesome). I think that if they hadn't done that, it would have been fucking terrifying when Severus and Voldy did it in the movie.
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